Wednesday

Talked to Ophelia last night. Wasn't bad.

Basically, my unemployment makes her uneasy and she cannot commit to a man that she has to worry about. I guess commitment is different for some people. I told her I am going to get my stuff together, and then I want to re-investigate where we are, and if we can become one again. She said ok, but I wonder if she really meant it.
Trying to be positive. Like she said, 50% of the time our relationship is perfect, something you spend a lifetime looking for...the rest of the time, worries, doubts, and weirdness affect us both, which affects the other, which results in irrational behavior.

I love you Ophelia. I don't like this separation, but I know it must be done. I hope our paths connect again in a major way.