and so it begins...

So here I stand...my entire existence hanging by a thread.
To catch you up....

I was fired from my job the first week of December...apparently nobody wants to hire me.
Convicted of a DUI the 3rd week of December.
2 days ago, the girlfriend/woman of my dreams decided we needed a time out, because she is not sure what to do about us...we met on Labor Day of 2009, became a couple 3 weeks later. But, she has still not filed for divorce, and cannot handle a guy that is very emotional, very sweet and affectionate, and, according to her, plays the girl role in our relationship because she is so cold. And, there are the constant discussions about sex, because I have a very high sex drive and she has NONE (thanks Cymbalta!!).
My life sucks, and the desire to live, without her in my life, takes a steep nose dive.
I am 40, she is 45.
We have this inside joke, with accents, where we talk as a rich snobby couple. We become Lenwood and Ophelia Hamilton. Those names will suffice for us on here.

I will share my life and the daily bs that seems to attract to me...hopefully Ophelia will realize that we have a one in a million relationship, it is time for her to let go of her failed marriage, and, as she suggested on Thanksgiving, we should live together. As Yes said, Love will find a way.
Please walk with me...it is usually fun