Right now, I just want to die. Not going to kill myself, but the grief overwhelms me...it is shutting me down.

Trying to stay upbeat, but nothing is going my way. Maybe Ophelia is right, and I am a "cursed" person.
Two interviews today...was told that I am not "cute enough" to work in their restaurant.

Came home, drank a warm 40...maybe a nap will help.

Had a dream of Ophelia last night...she had cut her hair short like she has been talking about...Ann Heche short. God she was BEAUTIFUL!!!

I have no one to talk to.